Y'all know whats? I tell you whats. My grammar teach are badd!

Seriously, though. I'm freaking impatient. I can't wait until July 5th.... And it's not like anyone's watchin me on this account. I'm not popular, I'm barely over a thousand pageviews after a year, I'm in an art slump so I can't draw anything good enough to submit anyway. This account is basically dead to me. I'm trying really hard right now to focus all my emoness on dA and not bring school into this because my school life doesn't really matter in terms of this journal... Bleh, I'm rambling, aren't I?

...Not only am I impatient, but I'm desperate and lame. I started a separate account becuase I hated the first life I'd set up for myself on dA (CONFESSIONS OF AN EMO GIRL!). I thought that maybe if I told everyone it was really me then you'd watch me there, too. Not that you guys who actually pay attention to me (what, like 2 people?) aren't cool, but maybe things would be different if I didn't have people who knew me as kata-thief. Yeah, it was different. It kinda sucks. Checking two accounts everyday, and having to constantly be careful of what I say on and offline...

But the alternate account didn't even make things better. So obviously, the problem wasn't in kata-thief, it was in me. I can't make friends in real life, and I can't make friends nline, no matter who I am. It's enough to make me want to commit suicide if suicide didn't make me die. (That's kind of the main point of it, though :\)

Like I said in my alternate account, which, by the way, I won't tell you what it is , I had a bad day at school, and that may be contributing to my emoness. Maybe.

Of course, if I could actually draw (not fishing for compliments so don't anyone dare give me any unless you want to be hated by an insignificant, pissy deviant!) it might help my popularity level. And if I were funny enough to crack a joke on a comment that might make me actually get noticed.

EMO RANT IS OVER NOW! Sorry for clogging your message box with this useless journal I'll be over it soon, I hope

PS: Anyone who tells me to look on the bright side, I am. I finally have enough material to make a long journal. That makes me happy

EDIT: I'm quitting dA on this account in case you couldn't gather. If you actually care about watching me and seeing my art, send me a note and I'll be glad to tell you where my alternate is. Just so I know that you actually care enough to spend the time to read this and note me. I expect I won't be getting any notes in the near future, though. :emo: